Thoughts and feelings from the cabinet...

I have been asked to describe my feelings and experiences in the cabinet so what follows is how I usually experience things during a typical sitting.
Hopefully this will help others who may be experiencing similar things but it’s important to remember that all mediums are unique and will develop in the way that best suits their individual makeup. There’s no point waiting for or expecting something to happen that happens to other mediums. This will just hold up development and it’s much better to relax and let what happens happen and not worry about anything. Let the spirit team work with you in their own way as they understand much more than we do…

Usually about an hour or two before I sit I start to feel light headed. I get fidgety and find it difficult to concentrate on things.

When I first sit down in the cabinet I develop a tickly cough. Sometimes my stomach feels like it’s tightening and churning around. The light headed feeling increases making me feel giddy and I feel a slight pressure on my forehead. I just sit back, make myself as comfortable as possible and relax.

I remain conscious, aware and can hear Liz doing the opening prayer. In the past I’ve tried various methods to decrease my awareness, like counting down, concentrating on an image, projecting my awareness away from me etc. but this just seems to hinder rather than help so I now do nothing except sit and relax and try not to interfere with anything that does happen.  

I then notice my breathing is becoming controlled. It’s slow at first and through my nose then through my mouth making a quiet whistling noise and I can feel a build-up of something like phlegm in my throat.

I get a pulling on one or both ears like having something very heavy hanging off them. I also get a feeling best described as having a bucket of custard poured on my head. I keep my eyes closed and although we’re in full blackout I see bright light at times, usually coming from each side of me as if creeping round from behind me. My head is brought forward off the chair and sometimes turns slowly from side to side as if checking out the room. My arms are raised off my lap and are often cupped together like they’re holding a football. At other times it’s like they are stretching out a piece of dough. A couple of times I’ve felt a kind of pushing down on me which seems to make me feel more subdued and I also sometimes feel a tingling on my lips.  

Sometimes I get a few words in my head and these are usually later spoken, normally at the start of a communication which kind of gets things going. I don’t get any clairvoyant impressions of when communicators are approaching or wanting to speak, it’s all purely physical sensations like a speeding up of my breathing and lip-smacking/kissing sounds which get louder and develop into speech. My hands are usually held together in front of me when communications start. I remain fully aware but slightly subdued. I’ve heard mediums say they find themselves aware but standing to one side of themselves but that’s never happened to me, I still feel as if my awareness is centred in my body. When a question is asked I hear it and it feels like my mind is searching for an answer but I also have a feeling that I’m sharing my mind with another entity. My legs and arms start to shake. A few months ago the shaking was a lot stronger affecting my whole body but it seems to have calmed down a little now. Sometimes I get another sensation which feels like I’m in a warm fuzzy bubble. Usually I feel it coming from my right making my right side feel fuzzy first before totally engulfing me. It’s a nice feeling and not at all unpleasant. I get very warm when the communications are in progress and I sometimes feel cool breezes round my legs.

The last communicator usually comes through right at the end of the sitting. I then have to wait a few minutes for them to fully withdraw before speaking. I have tried speaking before they withdraw but soon realise I can’t speak properly and it feels uncomfortable to do so. One week they left with a whoosh out the top of my head but now they seem to take it slowly. It’s like they’re gradually leaking out of me.

Once they’ve gone Liz does the closing prayer and healing then she does a closing down exercise by which time I’m fully back with it.  

I find it fascinating being able to sit in the cabinet in séance conditions and experience all that happens there. Although I’m open minded I tend to remain sceptical about things until I’ve experienced them for myself and there's been plenty to experience in the last year and a half. I find it interesting that much of what I experience is similar to what Joan said she experienced when she sat in the cabinet in the Mercury Circle.

I try not to analyse anything till after the sitting when we go upstairs for tea and cake or the next day when I do the report.

So far the communications have contained nothing that is beyond my own knowledge but the way they are given is unlike how I would be able to say it. When I usually talk about spiritual matters I find myself getting tongue-tied and unable to put what I understand into words but the communications during the sittings seem to flow freely.

Although I’m aware throughout the sitting and hear the communications as they happen I’m still surprised by how much has been said and the quality of the communications when I listen to the recordings.

As to the source of the communications I really don’t know at this point. From what they say one would assume they were separate entities coming from other realities speaking through me but it could also be aspects of me manifesting somehow.

I don’t consider the source of a communication being that important unless it’s a personal communication for somebody. What is important is what is said and whether it uplifts and is useful to whoever is receiving it.

We very rarely get names from the communicators at the moment and when asked say they are all coming through as one but they have also said that as things develop more they will come through as individuals. There are differences in the voices used and sometimes the voice will change during a communication, as if someone different has taken control to help answer a particular question.     

I’ve sat in some circles where the communicators are constantly asked to give their earthly names and talk about when they passed, where they lived, what they did on earth and so on which I feel keeps communication at an earthly level instead of raising the vibration so I’m pleased with the way the sitters ask mainly spiritual questions in our circle which results in some of the profound answers so far received. From my perspective in the cabinet I can feel the questions somehow empower and lift the communication when it would otherwise have tailed off.


We all look forward to more exciting sittings in 2014 and I will update this blog as things develop…

2013... a year of ups and downs...

This has been the first full year of sittings for the Mercury Light Circle.

Unfortunately due to work Dan had to leave us in February not returning till September so for seven months it was just Liz and me sitting each week. 

We kicked off the year experimenting with red light, both with the cabinet open and closed. Phenomena was reported in the red light as well as various different faces over mine but by March the communicators asked that we go back to developing in full black out. Liz then began experiencing more physical touches and she also found the darkness much better for discerning visual phenomena.

At the same time the communications from the cabinet started getting weaker. In fact during most weeks between April and June there was no communication at all, instead I found myself losing my awareness for about half an hour or so each week. When I came back I had memories of being outside the cabinet in the garage which appeared different to me. Amongst other things I saw open windows along the top of one of the walls, I saw people sitting round tables in the room and I saw a row of mugs lying on their sides in front of the cabinet which I then turned upright. I still don’t know if I was just falling asleep and dreaming or the team were taking me into a deeper trance state. This was at the time when the Mercury Star Circle was also sitting in the garage each week and Syann had told me that new energies she was developing would mean less communication from her spirit team and could possibly affect mine as well. Then in July after she disbanded the Mercury Star Circle to form a new circle in Haywards Heath my own communications began to grow strong again.

Liz has always been interested in the way the Scole Experiment sat in the 1990’s. In fact it was reading their book that sparked her interest in physical mediumship so with the Mercury Star Circle gone we decided to form a Scole style circle sitting round a table with a glass dome. We sit with no expectations and call the new circle the Mercury Experiment. So far developments have been mainly phenomena based as neither of us has been controlled for communication.

Meanwhile communications in the Mercury Light Circle were getting stronger and stronger each week. Liz was asking intelligent spiritual questions which in turn encouraged profound words from the cabinet. She told me afterwards they made good sense to her and often helped her with things going on in her own life at the time. We were told that our two circles would work well with each other and we also noticed that if Liz turned the music completely off it didn’t hinder the communications which seemed to be lasting longer each week.

Dan was back with us in September, just in time as it coincided with Liz’s holiday and for two weeks it was just Dan and me which possibly helped stabilise and re-introduce his energy back into the circle.

When Liz came back from holiday she was asked to continue sending out healing at the end of each session and to direct some of this healing to those who have passed over but are still on our side in their thoughts. She was asked to send light to our spirit team that they can utilize and use to help these confused people and in the future they may well send individuals into our room to be helped in this way.

The communications were still increasing and although I was not taken completely out of it I was finding it took longer each week for me to return to normality.

Dan was now drifting out of it for brief periods some weeks and he described it as feeling like he was being put in a box. Then one week a communicator spoke through me to Dan encouraging him to let someone speak through him and we were treated to a few words from Dan’s spirit friend.

On another occasion a communicator spoke to Liz and was able to manipulate and change images as she perceived them.

Our extra sit each month with Liz in the cabinet has been developing well and I’ve been experiencing much phenomena in the room while Liz has been vocalizing her experiences as they happen which proved very interesting when she last sat in December.


December saw some of our best Mercury Light sittings so far and we look forward to more exciting developments in 2014…