I have been asked to describe my feelings and experiences in
the cabinet so what follows is how I usually experience things during a typical
sitting.
Hopefully this will help others who may be experiencing
similar things but it’s important to remember that all mediums are unique
and will develop in the way that best suits their individual makeup. There’s no point waiting for or expecting
something to happen that happens to other mediums. This will just hold up
development and it’s much better to relax and let what happens happen and not
worry about anything. Let the spirit team work with you in their own way as
they understand much more than we do…
Usually about an hour or two before I sit I start to feel
light headed. I get fidgety and find it difficult to concentrate on things.
When I first sit down in the cabinet I develop a tickly
cough. Sometimes my stomach feels like it’s tightening and churning around. The
light headed feeling increases making me feel giddy and I feel a slight
pressure on my forehead. I just sit back, make myself as comfortable as
possible and relax.
I remain conscious, aware and can hear Liz doing the opening
prayer. In the past I’ve tried various methods to decrease my awareness, like
counting down, concentrating on an image, projecting my awareness away from me etc.
but this just seems to hinder rather than help so I now do nothing except sit
and relax and try not to interfere with anything that does happen.
I then notice my breathing is becoming controlled. It’s slow
at first and through my nose then through my mouth making a quiet whistling
noise and I can feel a build-up of something like phlegm in my throat.
I get a pulling on one or both ears like having something
very heavy hanging off them. I also get a feeling best described as having a
bucket of custard poured on my head. I keep my eyes closed and although we’re
in full blackout I see bright light at times, usually coming from each side of
me as if creeping round from behind me. My head is brought forward off the
chair and sometimes turns slowly from side to side as if checking out the room.
My arms are raised off my lap and are often cupped together like they’re
holding a football. At other times it’s like they are stretching out a piece of
dough. A couple of times I’ve felt a kind of pushing down on me which seems to
make me feel more subdued and I also sometimes feel a tingling on my lips.
Sometimes I get a few words in my head and these are usually
later spoken, normally at the start of a communication which kind of gets
things going. I don’t get any clairvoyant impressions of when communicators are
approaching or wanting to speak, it’s all purely physical sensations like a
speeding up of my breathing and lip-smacking/kissing sounds which get louder
and develop into speech. My hands are usually held together in front of me when
communications start. I remain fully aware but slightly subdued. I’ve heard
mediums say they find themselves aware but standing to one side of themselves
but that’s never happened to me, I still feel as if my awareness is centred in
my body. When a question is asked I hear it and it feels like my mind is
searching for an answer but I also have a feeling that I’m sharing my mind with
another entity. My legs and arms start to shake. A few months ago the shaking
was a lot stronger affecting my whole body but it seems to have calmed down a
little now. Sometimes I get another sensation which feels like I’m in a warm
fuzzy bubble. Usually I feel it coming from my right making my right side feel
fuzzy first before totally engulfing me. It’s a nice feeling and not at all
unpleasant. I get very warm when the communications are in progress and I
sometimes feel cool breezes round my legs.
The last communicator usually comes through right at the end
of the sitting. I then have to wait a few minutes for them to fully withdraw
before speaking. I have tried speaking before they withdraw but soon realise I can’t
speak properly and it feels uncomfortable to do so. One week they left with a
whoosh out the top of my head but now they seem to take it slowly. It’s like
they’re gradually leaking out of me.
Once they’ve gone Liz does the closing prayer and healing
then she does a closing down exercise by which time I’m fully back with it.
I find it fascinating being able to sit in the cabinet in séance
conditions and experience all that happens there. Although I’m open minded I tend to
remain sceptical about things until I’ve experienced them for myself and there's been plenty to experience in the last year and a half. I find it interesting that much of what I experience is similar to what Joan said she experienced when she sat in the cabinet in the Mercury Circle.
I try not to analyse anything till after the sitting when we
go upstairs for tea and cake or the next day when I do the report.
So far the communications have contained nothing that is
beyond my own knowledge but the way they are given is unlike how I would be
able to say it. When I usually talk about spiritual matters I find myself
getting tongue-tied and unable to put what I understand into words but the
communications during the sittings seem to flow freely.
Although I’m aware throughout the sitting and hear the
communications as they happen I’m still surprised by how much has been said and
the quality of the communications when I listen to the recordings.
As to the source of the communications I really don’t know
at this point. From what they say one would assume they were separate entities
coming from other realities speaking through me but it could also be aspects of
me manifesting somehow.
I don’t consider the source of a communication
being that important unless it’s a personal communication for somebody. What is important is
what is said and whether it uplifts and is useful to whoever is receiving it.
We very rarely get names from the communicators at the
moment and when asked say they are all coming through as one but they have also
said that as things develop more they will come through as individuals. There
are differences in the voices used and sometimes the voice will change during a
communication, as if someone different has taken control to help answer a
particular question.
I’ve sat in some circles where the communicators are
constantly asked to give their earthly names and talk about when they passed,
where they lived, what they did on earth and so on which I feel keeps
communication at an earthly level instead of raising the vibration so I’m
pleased with the way the sitters ask mainly spiritual questions in our circle which results
in some of the profound answers so far received. From my perspective in the cabinet I can feel the questions
somehow empower and lift the communication when it would otherwise have tailed
off.
We all look forward to more exciting sittings in 2014 and I
will update this blog as things develop…